Static Faith

Do you ever feel like you just can’t seem to move forward with your faith, you’re stuck, like you’re a slave?

Do you ever feel like you are walking in the right direction yet you have no conviction to go beyond that?

Do you ever feel like you’re simply acting out of static faith?

You go to church on Sunday and on Wednesday, every so often read your bible and pray, but something just doesn’t feel quite right; you feel like you are stopping short of God’s sight.

You feel as though you’re stuck in limbo, stopped at the gate, trapped in the monotony of routine faith,

caught by the regularity of your Christianity

Your eyes look and your ears listen to our universal Christian calling, but do you really see and do you really hear what it means to really be Christian.

The words you read and the things you say shouldn’t be hollow and grey…but they are. Your faith is static.

It’s dull instead of emphatic. You know what’s right, but do you actively strive to right the wrongs you see? Hurricanes lash and earthquakes crash yet you sit and wait.

You wonder, “Why doesn’t someone help them to alleviate?” That someone could be you, should be you. While wars rage and people hate (do you seek out either resolutions or solutions to the pain? No, because your faith is static,

whilst sin wreaks havoc, you sit still in your armchair seeking God nowhere. You read the news while your relationship with Christ is simply set to cruise.

My people, do not simply listen but hear. Do not simply read the word but let your heart be spurred. Do not deceive yourselves into thinking your voice cannot be heard.

Do what the word says and don’t be static. Be a pragmatic. Go out, pray with the masses, show them your passions.

Engage in the community and seize the opportunity.

To share the gospel, to be an apostle.

To invite the love of Jesus Christ into your heart and not to quit.

To make him a part of your life, instead of apart from it.

Go out and eradicate static faith.

Truth

Truth outside of God is a never ending journey, a ravenous hunger, a diseased corpse stumbling farther and farther from our grasp, we run towards it like a groom to his bride, yet when we lift her veil we see nothing inside. We preach philanthropy yet act on greed. We lust for something to give us purpose, we are parched of hope and claw at the dirt for something to quench it. Like a knight marching into battle, yet our armor is forged from the fires of delusion. Our search for meaning, for truth, is noble and yet unoriginal to our species. Since the dawn of man, we have thrown ourselves into the ocean strapped to an anchor of longing and told the world we could swim. So they are forced to watch as we sink lower and lower until we vanish from sight, choking on our egos, and grasping at a phantom vision of what we thought truth whist our obsession, like a tender dove, flutters quickly away, and perches itself on mans shoulder, waiting to drive him mad another day.

But if we search for truth IN God, we find a much brighter future. We find forever loving story, a satisfying feast, a victorious savior marching closer and closer, welcoming us into his open arms, and if we run towards him, like a groom to his bride, then, when we lift her veil, we see grace abounding. We will preach philanthropy and act on love. We may lust for something to give us purpose, and we may feel parched of hope and claw at the dirt for something to quench it. But, if we seek His holy council, we will go forward, like a knight marching into battle, with armor forged from the fires of Hope and Salvation. Our search for meaning, for truth, is concluded at the foot of the cross, where the savior of man threw himself into the ocean strapped to an anchor weighed down by our sins as the world told him he couldn’t swim. But soon they were witnesses to the greatest miracle of all, as he cut the anchor away, and let it lower and lower until it vanished from sight, choking our transgressions, and giving us at a lifelong vision of what we now know truth is, and our new selves, like tender doves, flutter away from the dark, and we perch ourselves onto his shoulder, waiting for him to drive us home one day.

Discipline

"The grass isn't greener on the other side, its greener where you water it."- Wild Habits, Tara Mackey

A light shines in the dark

“Why

Why do they do it.

Why do they do hit.

Why do they throw me around like this.

Why.

Why do they say it.

Why do they yell and curse and spit.

Is it something I said?

Is it something I did?

What have I done to deserve this?

Inside and out

I'm broken, bruised, beaten, and bombarded

By pain

By a thought

Every word hits like a shot.

Alone.

Left alone

Left alone to suffer

Alone to cry

Their happiness is hurt, but why?

I don't deserve this.

My floor is stained with tears, 

My thoughts by nostalgia of days when I was wanted, when I wasn't consumed by fears.

I want to fight them, I want to scream,

I want to make them hurt like they hurt me!

I want to pull out my hair, I want to run

I want to somehow not care

I hate that they hate me

Yet I can't help but agree...

Do I matter? 

Does anybody care?

It's not fair

So do I dare?

Dare to care?

To open up, to share?

No

No one will stop

Nothing will change

I can't stop these thoughts in my brain.

Maybe I do deserve this...

What's the point

Why try

Their inquiries are hollow, worthless, and dry

I don't belong

I'm not welcome anymore

I can't even get up off of the floor

They say I'm crazy

That I'm weird

That I don't belong here

Of course I am

Of course I don't

I could protest

But I won't

Nothing matters

I can't get away

My own inadequacy haunts me every day

There's no way out...

I can't go on...

I do deserve this…”

Think twice about what you say, or what you don’t, go out of your way to include the outsider, make sure to say something, anything, from a “good morning, how are ya?” To “hey man praying for ya.” You never know the impact of what you say, after all, the heart is the only muscle in the body that can be uplifted or crushed with a single word. A little kindness can go a long way, it can even save lives. I can personally attest to (as well as thank) many people giving me kind words, loving hugs, and meaningful prayers. Things will always be bad, but its only in the darkness that you can truly appreciate the splendor if His light. If you are reading this and think no one understands, or cares, you aren’t alone. I have been through Hell and back, and here I stand. If you truly want to change your situation, things can and will get better. Suicide isn’t an answer to a problem, it merely transfers and multiplies the pain you feel onto the shoulders of all who love and care for you. 1-800-273-8255

The Beauty of Creation

As i look around, I begin to tremble, then cry.                

For i see beauty on the ground and in the sky.          

I see it as the morning dew sets upon my lawn.                

I see it as I watch a toddler, so young and sweet, begin to yawn.    

It is there as the sparrow perches and prepares

To bless my ears with his melodies, relieving me of cares

Every hour, every minute, and every second, in each you can find it

This element, this aspect, this beautiful and distinct touch

So I sit

And I listen

So I sit

And I watch

I decide that this, this feeling, this overwhelming compassion,

This mark, this delightful part of our world

That this peace and power comes from He

From He who designed it all, 

From He who grew the grass and stood the trees up tall, 

From He who put, above my head, the sky, and who put the sun, moon and stars so high,

And I know that my Father, my Creator, my Messiah, my Redeemer, and Friend

Put that same beauty in me, and will take care of it until my end

Here goes nothing

Alright, I have never done anything like this before but I feel like God is calling me to share the many blessing I have been given with anyone and everyone around me. This blog will basically just be random things that happen I am thankful for, where I see God, or maybe just random bits of poetry or quotes I write or find. So here goes nothing! Lets see where He takes us!